Is absolutely destroying me once again. It’s like being hit in the head with a slab of concrete wrapped in a lemon wedge, as Zaphod Beeblebrox once described a certain beverage. I am absolutely smitten with Alyosha. More than smitten. I desperately want to channel his amazing ability to take his own ego out of a situation and be there wholly and unconditionally for God and for others. Of course I realize that he is a fictional character. I’m sure Dostoevsky himself was not so winsome.