Is absolutely destroying me once again.  It’s like being hit in the head with a slab of concrete wrapped in a lemon wedge, as Zaphod Beeblebrox once described a certain beverage.  I am absolutely smitten with Alyosha.  More than smitten.  I desperately want to channel his amazing ability to take his own ego out of a situation and be there wholly and unconditionally for God and for others.  Of course I realize that he is a fictional character.  I’m sure Dostoevsky himself was not so winsome.